I was just over visiting MckMama and praying for baby Stellan. WOW- what a list of prayer warriors and the awesome power of a community all over the world uniting via computers knitting themselves together in prayer for a family and then to watch God's plan unfold is testimony that our God LIVES.... HE IS STILL ON THE THRONE even in the midst of our countries turmoil..AMEN? I am SO excited to get involved with communities of women and develop a foundation of friends & family support.

First thing on my never ending list of "to do's" ( of which I am a slave to :-)
is to write a profile of myself explaining who all of these lovely faces are on my blog. I am waiting for one more picture of my oldest daughter to be put up so THE FAM is complete! MckMama reminds me a little of myself when my tribe was younger....NOW..the time has leaped ahead 20 years and I am standing here going " wait a minute" I want to go back for just a day and hold them again. Time truly does FLY BY.

I will be sharing about my journey with IBD - Inflammatory Bowel Disease of which I have one of the two called Ulcerative Colitis and along with that the journey God is now taking me down a nutrition path. I plan on posting a documentary of trying a high raw food diet to see the effects of that on my UC....

I have much to say about turning 40 this year, my journey to find my "authentic self" the person God created my to be, my story ( still being written :) of being a wounded warrior, my quest to be a balanced mom of a competitive gymnast at an elite training center, becoming a grandma this last November to the cutest grandbaby ever..Reed and waiting on grandbaby #2 due this February!!!!...( Karalina Bleau)

Second marriage..three children by my first marriage..2 children in my second and current marriage..we have been married for 14 years..Second separation..lots of counseling..have been praying for about 8 years for his salvation..genuine repentance..my continued heart healing..renewed hope and strength that me and the children will see the other side..

..beginning an exercise program of walking/running 20 minutes a day...

...is that enough for the moment:-) Needless to say my heart is overflowing and is in need of a place to put it all down. THIS is my place. MY HEART HOUSE:-)......I am compelled to believe there is a purpose and a dream for my life and all have not been in vain. I may not live to see it but I BELIEVE GOD that HE WILL USE IT for HIS GLORY and for the healing of generations of hurt in my family. IT TAKES JUST ONE--

From NOW on.... Live before you die; and vice versa...

I feel a little like a child that has opened something that I shouldn't have and now I'm asking " What in the world do I do now?"

I just wanted to write a short " something " on my first blog ever! I am overwhelmed on where to even start....Thanks Danielle - so much - I'm leaving the test post by the way...it made me cry. It really touched me right where God has His Hand. You've done a crazy amazing job on this blog! I am so looking forward to working with you more. Keep up the creativity and continue WOWING ( is that a word?:) people with your gift...

Test Post

I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life